I’m sitting here,typing this paragraph quietly. my heart hurts like it’s warning me you’re letting it beats too fast. and mainly it’s because i’m depressed….

not blaming anyone, what has happened to me is already lucky enough for me. come on, I’m only a fan. This whole thing is already so unreal just like a dream. keep the great memories. keep going and be a fan for ever. I keep telling myself,no matter how, I’m still not part of their life. Having a chance to chat with them is already great, not to mention having their personal msn and they remember myself. I probably care about this because I’m already addicted, addicted to chatting with her. Be online becasue they will be, be offline because they won’t be online.

Ashley Tisdale is deleting msn. I’m sad,of course. and this happened on August 16,2009. she said she wil keep bebo,tho. but in fact,she didn’t. >:(

however,the day after that, she added me with another new account. she said she’s still addicted to the fans and friends here.

it’s August 22 today, and she’s deleting the new account again…

didn’t you promise you will be there for me and won’t go again?

Ashley Tisdale.. broke your promise like… again?

i’ll always forgive you like you always forgive the others.

but somehow i still can’t erase the great memories.

i know.

i should let go this time…

<i>but you’re so hypnotizing,you got me laughing while i sing. you got me smiling in my sleep</i>

Howard asked Melissa to England and i wanna go with her, we almost got the chance to England but at last, my parents think it’s too dangerous, anything could happen. we’re not going. :’(

mom said we can go to Korea which is only 9900 NT dollars yesterday evening about 12 o’clock. living in a hotel which needs more than ten thousand a night for three evenings and going to 18 famous spots. i would prefer England better but i was just thinking why not just go for fun? so… i’m going to Korea. however, Melissa isn’t going. the main reason is probably because a lot of my relatives are going too and she doesn’t like it… -.-

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everything is worthy.

it’s lame and make me don’t wanna read it. lmfao

anyway,i’m speachless..

My classmate in Class 93 and I had a huge singing contest.

It was devided in several categories: singing with bands,singing alone… All of my classmate were shy, everyone tried to escape … lol , and so do I.

However, I was caught to play band, but I didn’t even say I was going to participate this category, I didn’t get a band ! I saw Ashley and asked her if she could borrow her band to me xD… let me be the vocalist and if she would cover me. We sang Hot Mess, but I actually didn’t look to the audience, I turned my back since I was on the stage,facing Ashley(who standed at the back of the stage). lmfaoo >< 

After that, wanna escape again. Everyone was surrounding Ashley and talking to her. “You’re so beautiful.”"Ashley, you’re so hot!”"You’re so sexy.” (I guess these are my words deep in my mind) I was called to sing alone on the stage again. o_O I was wondering which song should I perform? Suddenly,Me Without You,What If came up my mind cause’ Ashley was there,but literally, I was thinking maybe I can sing No Boundaries. Anyway, when I decided and ready to sing What If… I woke up….  XD

anyway, i think i can do my blog well, cause’ i helped my sister to do her blog before, and she has been using wordpress :]

http://melihsiung.wordpress.com/